I think I've come upon a mental cycle tied to my desire to kill my brain. I'm 4 days into not having alcohol and generally taking care of myself. The more present and aware I become the less happy I become. The more I want to destroy my awareness and to become absent. The society I am surrounded by is full of imaginary shit. Thought up by some dead unimaginative shortsighted and selfish animals centuries before my birth. What a fucking joke of a world we've created. What a fu

On the previous attempt I went 16 days without any substances. My uncle died and I drank, and I got high. And now here we are. I'll be...

Five days of complete sobriety. Weight: 196.4 lbs Fat Weight: 45.9 lbs Muscle Weight: 142.9 lbs Blood Pressure: 123/78 Heart Rate: 70...

Weight: 203.5 lbs Fat Weight: 47.3 lbs Muscle Weight: 145.2 lbs Blood Pressure: 132/90 Heart Rate: 63 So begins a journey of 30 days of...